Saturday, November 12, 2016

Why I Am Bawling

A Good Cry

Well, I have been bawling my eyes out all afternoon! No one has done anything hurtful to me. No, it is not over politics. I am not crying over anything that is negative. No, it is not because of what I ate for dinner. Yes, that is a three day left over PB & J from my son’s lunch. Just so you know….I am beginning to believe that after thirty plus years of bad cooking that I am now immune to bad food and ok ok… I am a lazy cook! So why am I all in a dither of emotion?

Truth is, I have been having a girlie stay at home day. The kind where you wear comfy clothes, wear no make-up, and you watch movies all day. Oh, and you don’t answer your phone or the door. The guys are both camping so I am home alone for the weekend. I pulled out my cross stitch and have been enjoying several wonderful movies. Movies that filled my soul with that personal water that leaks out a bit.

The First movie was St. Vincent. Maggie (Melissa McCarthy), a struggling single woman, moves to Brooklyn with her 12-year-old son, Oliver (Jaeden Lieberher). Having to work very long hours, she has no choice but to leave Oliver in the care of Vincent (Bill Murray), a bawdy misanthrope next door. Vincent takes Oliver along on his trips to the race track, strip club and dive bar, and an unlikely friendship is born. The man is a mentor to the boy in his hedonistic way, and Oliver sees the good in Vincent that no one else can. 

I was really touched by this movie! You see, I have a very unlikely mentor too! I have a close friend who is transgender. At first, it was a bit of a curiosity but I have learned to see beyond the gender and value the person. A person who respects me, offers advice, teaches me, and I know cares about me. Moreover, this person has taught me the value of self-worth and has helped me on a path of healing from a long history of childhood trauma. I also appreciate that my friend is not perfect and sucks at fashion. Then again, so do I! 

The second movie was Julie & Julia. Frustrated with a soul-killing job, New Yorker Julie Powell (Amy Adams) embarks on a daring project: she vows to prepare all 524 recipes in Julia Childs' landmark cookbook, "Mastering the Art of French Cooking." Intertwined with Julie's story is the true tale of how Julia Child (Meryl Streep) herself conquered French cuisine with passion, fearlessness, and plenty of butter.

I must say, I love to eat! I follow all sorts of bloggers who cook. Just look to the right side to the blogs I follow. I hate to cook! It is boring to me. When I do attempt to cook, things happen like the fire truck showing up over burnt chicken. Oh and I tend to add things to dishes that don’t always go or taste good together. Anyways, I come from a family of terrible cooks. My grandmother Mildred sent our family to the hospital one year due to food poisoning. Furthermore, I don’t do boiled eggs. Again, Grandmother Mildred gave me a beautiful colored egg which happen to have a dead hard boiled chick inside. So this explains why we have plastic eggs on Easter.  Alas, if I could cook then I think my blog would be much more entertaining. 

The third movie was October Baby. October Baby is a 2011 American Christian-themed drama film directed by Andrew Erwin and Jon Erwin and starring Rachel Hendrix in her film debut. It is the story of a woman named Hannah, who learns as a young adult that she survived a failed abortion attempt. She then embarks upon a road trip to understand the circumstances of her birth. October Baby was inspired by a YouTube video chronicling the life experiences of abortion survivor Gianna Jessen.

This movie really pulled my heart in many different directions. You see, my son is adopted. I am so grateful that his birth mother made the choice to not end his life. Without her choice to continue with the pregnancy, I would not have such an amazing child. We have always been open about our son’s adoption with him. When we began the Foster/adopt program, we were very blessed to have a friend who was adopted and a friend who gave up a child to adoption. Each of their experiences helped to give me a compassionate perspective into adoption and has taught me how to be a good parent. I still am learning these lessons. 

I know I haven’t posted as much. I have attended several lunches, visited a few amazing events, and have been crafting it up a bit. I do hope yall are doing well, and please tell me below what you are doing! Lets Connect!


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